nostalgia

I don't know why it is different this time, but starting last night and all through class today I had a serious case of nostalgia...from good memories of days gone by to freaking out about days to come. the first time I graduated from college I was just so excited for it to all be over and done with. and now I start to "freak out" and hyperventilate when I think that in just a few short months I will be done. I think that this all stems from the fact that when I finish college this time, I really will be done. I will have majored in something that I can get a good job in. I have to figure out what population I want to work with (for sure) and I have to find a facility that feels right. I have to finally start paying off all of those student loans. I have to be a grown up.

in case you hadn't guessed, today was most likely the last first day of school I might have. I have been in school so long that it is where I feel comfortable. which is probably where most of my stress comes from. this semester we have a normal 16 week semester squished into 12 weeks. the remaining four weeks are when we do a 120 hour practicum, where we work one on one with nurse at a facility of our choice (hopefully....they try to accommodate every one's wishes). then it's all over. hopefully I will feel a little more comfortable and more prepared to be a real nurse after this semester. but I can't help but wish that I had a couple more semesters to go...