job part 2

so...she finally called today. actually when I called her after I checked the messages on my phone (which were only about 30 minutes old) she said that she had been trying to reach me all morning. it was 2 when she left the message...so if she had been trying all day I didn't know that she had called until then. whatever.

I didn't get it.

and to make matters a little worse, she said that the reason I didn't get the job was because the other girl has more experience than I do...roughly translated that means that she did her practicum in ob, and I didn't.

and then she told me that they weren't going to be able to let me train for six months like she told me on monday. nope, I only get 6 weeks. I was offered an on call/per diem position in post partum with 6 weeks of training/orientation. and if something opens up after that I can reapply for the position.

I feel like such a loser.

so now I figure that I have three options.

1. I take the job and hope that I can pick up enough hours to be full time, and I hope that a full time position opens up soon.
2. I take the job, but I keep looking for another full time job.
3. I don't take the job and I keep looking for a full time job somewhere else.

there are pros and cons to each. and I don't have the time or patience to completely discuss each one. nor do I want to discuss how disappointed I am. but there it is. my decision needs to be made by mon or tues.

I know which option is probably the smartest right now, but I don't know if it's what I'm supposed to do.

why can't I just catch a break ??